It's All About Awesome

I really dont have anything to say. Just not able to sleep for past few days. Never felt sleep to be the toughest part of the day. Once upon a time it was the easiest thing ever. It's almost 4am and I entertain myself by watching FRIENDS, How I Met Your Mother, and other sitcoms and series. Oh tomorrow they air Prison Break. Eagerly waiting for it. Sad the awesome seasons are reaching the end :( oh well hopefully there'll be something new to continue entertaining me.
Anyways thats not what I wanted to talk about. Its about past one month, nights have been longer than never before. Just cannot find any slot for looking forward to something each day. Ofcourse there are many, but nothing interests me. Not even the awesomeness of my surounding. I dont get it one day you are there, there meaning the awesome place believing in the awesomeness and dealing with everythign to keep it awesome. Ofcourse no awesome thing can be kept unless you face the consequences to deal with it in the right way. But what do you do even after facing the consequences and you held to your bravery that the awesomeness will be there forever but you find yourself that the things around you is no more awesome?
Sulk? Suck life? I dont know. But I just learned one thing,. When you lose something that was the most awesome thing ever in your life, your life is never as awesome as then. Well for forever or for long I dont know. Its pretty long. "So long pretty long", wish I could say that right now.
But I think I know the cure to this, cure to being awesome maybe not 'long' awesome feel but 'simply' awesom. Starbucks with friends! Forget the price. To be awesome bear the horrible consequences!
I'm Awesome [hopefully for now]